Ladybug Speaks the Truth

  There are so many lies woven into Asshole's story that to this day, I still don't know what is fact or fiction. At first, they went almost unnoticed. A shimmer of doubt here or there that I wasn't able to confirm or deny. I am one of those people that believes that the past belongs in the past, so I didn't care much about what happened before. Just that going forward that things were honest and open. Asshole liked telling me about his job, and how important he was at work, and how much money he made, all trying to impress me. He had no understanding that money doesn't impress me. I grew up without money, and I have seen people lose everything in the blink of an eye, so there are more important things in my life. Early on in our relationship, sometime in April, as it was still tax season (and I do income taxes for a living) Asshole had been complaining about being on the phone that day with CRA. I was curious what he could be having issues with. As someone who deal...

 As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text. Dear Rob- Basic draft Date Feb 17, 2020 I hope this finds you well. This may be an awkward letter to read. I know it is an awkward letter to write. I've been reflecting on it for some time now. It's a risk because of who/what Amanda is Regardless of the mess that Amanda has created with the aid of Erin Getty, she is still and will always be the Great Love of my life; and even though there has been a lot of stuff, my thoughts and feelings about Amanda are the most honest and Sincere truths in my life, and I believe this whole matter is fixable. I still want to marry Amanda and spend my life with her. This whole situation is due in part to a misunderstanding and miscommunication not to mention the manipulation and interference Erin. Amanda told me that Erin is the inadvertent cause of the breakdown of your relationship. In my case Erin is the direct cause. I believe it is out of jealousy and a need to...

 **As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** My gorgeous fiancée. Date Feb 15 2020 I miss you and I adove you! I really wish you were here. The cold is getting to me. Had a lot to do today. First thing was doing housework and organizing my desk here at home and framing some photographs. Had a few errands to nin downtown I'm not a fan of holiday weekends especially at this time of I yeg had another one of the vivid dreams again so this afternoon I saw my psychic reading about the whole situation. Jasmine had quite a bit to say about you and 'us'. She told me you want this but don't know how to because the circumstances that are in place. I just wish there were a way I could tell you how this could work. I know it can and I will do whatever you want because that is how much I love you. There have Been so much change here- all that you have asked for your engagement ring and wedding rings are here for you, along with the mortgage for ...

 **As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** ・February 14, 2020- Happy Valentine's Day My Love - I love you, Wish you were here. sadove you, I miss you terribly! I Somy I did not finise last night. (My pen seems to be running out, hence the changing.) I got home, it was cold and I was tired. Please forgive me. I just went to bed. my and Today I have a flexibleday. I only had an 11am meeting which was short and sweet. Dropped in at the library to collect two books and then to the bank to pay two biels Picked up a few groceries, had lunch and did some housework-mainly housework - mainly laundry. I did RCIA Reading now I'm writing you. I really wish I could see, you. Amanda- you are the great love of my life and I just wish you would be willing to fix this. Somewhere in my deepest being, I know you really want to but feel it can't be fixed or you have been told it can't be fixed. Last night's RCIA class on the sacrament of Reconci...

 **As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** February 13/20 My darling fiancée- I miss you and I love you - The so called storm has begun. I've just reture. from getting lunch and sitting at my desk to put pen to paper to you. hunch is not spectacular- just a pota pit wrap My morning has been busy Up early and I got some practising in before 10am. Then I have been typesetting solidly for three hours. Right now it's Page 98 Date just after 2pm. I'm hoping to leave here by 4:30pm so I can get home and not feel rushed like I did last Thursday as I have some reading to do before RCIA . I am going to mail that card today - no ands ifs or buts The past week my intuition has been telling me that you and 'no' are fixable big time and some how you want to fix this. How I communicate that to you is the hard thing so the card is I hope a way to start that. unynicate Amanda, you are my first and last thought each and every day. Amanda-you ...

 **As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** My darling Amanda- off my Date Feb 2020 My day got away from me yesterday. I seemed to be run feet and always late for things. I didn't have time to write you yesterday. I finally got home at 9:15pm after RCIA class. Ate supper and just crawled into bed and slept until 8am this morning. my RCIA was about sin. Fr. Bester read an interesting paper he wrote. I could have listened to him all night. I like the scholarly side of his presentations. The snack last night was very impressive - leftover pizza, etc. St durateful was like another meal. I was grateful as I didn't have time yesterday to get meals. I was late arriving for RCIA and felt bad about that I've I've got a cold. This morning I'm downing a large pot of ginger tea! I think I got the cold on Wednesday when I was at the hospital as a little old lady in the waiting area who clearly had a cold. Oh well, nothing planned for the w...

  I was going through my phone downloads looking for something from forever ago, and I happened across a safety deposit box listing that Asshole had on his blog. It's dated April 29, 2021, which as we all know is after he delivered The Manifesto to my parents address. This means that it is also after he plead guilty to multiple charges including criminal harassment, AND it's after he violated those conditions of no contact direct or indirect and was charged with more criminal harassment charges. (Among others.) This guy just wouldn't stop. He had exhausted all means of communication via email, snail mail, contacting family members, coworkers, priests (not just mine, but other denominations as well) and had resorted to posting lies on the internet. At one point, his bail conditions stated that he was not allowed to even access the internet, but it was clear that the resources to police that did not exist, and the condition was dropped. I am not sure what he thought was going...

***Comments in purple are from Google Drive that converts cursive in an image to text. I have not taken the time to edit the translation, so feel free to zoom in on the original image for more accurate reading*** Nov. 25 I miss very tired. I adore miss you so much! I ache to hold so much! I ache to hold you in my arms. Did not sleep well last night. You were night. You're always there I must say.. My mindy mind the whole The first thing in the morning, and the last thing at night. What I desire is Page 4 Date Don't to wake up next to you. That is what I call heaven to do today. Maybe sleep ?!?. Went know what I'm going Then I had for a long walk this morning a lot to catch up on from last week. Yoga. Have I know this problem is so fixable. I'll do anything to fix it my darling. You and us are worth it. We've let this go on far far too long I have a regret that I did not call you on. I just desire to talk July to you. 3 and say. - let's talk. Right now, This has ...