Ladybug Speaks the Truth

  I have decided that this week, we are going to be focusing on words and definitions. Asshole has lots of big words that he likes to throw around, however he clearly has no clue what they actually mean. So, without further ado, let's begin Word of the Day Week here at Ladybug Speaks Truth. Obviously we need to kick off the week strong with Asshole's favourite word, Narcissist. Oxford Languages has this to say about narcissist: nar·cis·sist noun a person who has an excessive interest in or  admiration  of themselves. "narcissists who think the world revolves around them" Wikipedia has this to say about Narcissism: Narcissism  is a self-centered personality style characterized as having an excessive preoccupation with oneself and one's own needs, often at the expense of others. [1] [2] Narcissism exists on a continuum that ranges from normal to abnormal personality expression. [3]  While there exists  normal, healthy levels of narcissism  in humans, the...

 I have decided to start a new series, that I will be talking about from time to time. It's things that I have learned along the way, the hard way that would have prevented me from ending up meeting a monster like Asshole. The first and most important is to do a deep dive in the various internet search engines and social media. Asshole begged me not to Google him. Red flag number one. Here are some important places to search when you are doing some pre-screening before going to meet someone the first time: Google  - obviously! Try Googling their name and various combinations of their city, work, and even words like assault, criminal record, etc.  Facebook  (Instagram, etc) - Find their social media and see what they post. Someone going on and on about the narcissists and flying monkeys in their life screams trouble. In my experience, the person posting the memes is trying to deflect attention from what they are really doing. Also, if they keep posting the same 5 year...

 **As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text. Anything in black is my thoughts/interpretations.** Just when you think that we are finished with the Manifesto, we find some more goodies!  1. I met Amanda Ruth Cuff (née Verhoeven) almost a year ago. I never thought I would meet someone so special and fall in love after I initiated my divorce but I did. We fell in love very fast and we both said we had found the one wanted to spend the rest of our lives with. For me, I found the great love of my life. (All evidence I have seen suggests that he initiated the divorce AFTER I broke up with him, because he lied about not being divorced! ) 2. This whole matter began with a miscommunication of a number and the assumptions and misunderstandings arising from reading the draft affidavit of my divorce papers. I felt and I still believe it could/can be resolved because I have always believed and still believe that if we act like adults and talk, and not h...

 It's funny the things that I have seen, taken screenshots of, etc over the years of dealing with Asshole. Most of it I was never sure of when I would use it. When The Manifesto arrived, and went straight to police, I thought that would finally put an end to things. Except, it didn't entirely. Asshole still kept posting on the internet about me, and our life that he dreamed of. You see, Asshole learned very quickly, that the Crown would not prosecute charges that stem from things he posted on the internet. He was told not to do it, but no one would enforce it.  Therefore, after delivering the first Manifesto, he quickly got to work writing a second Manifesto. He posted pictures of it even! Since he didn't deliver it, no one cared to do anything about it. Thankfully, we only have the pictures below to look at, and hopefully the real thing has been long since forgotten and lost. I was reminded of The Manifesto's recently when I saw a very similar red book, with similar la...

  We live in interesting times with our justice system.  Most people do not realize that publication bans are put in place during certain types of trials. The justice system says it is to protect the victims. However, what happens when the victim does not want a publication ban?  Truth is, the ban stays in place. This is because the publication ban is really to protect the defendant. Oh, innocent until proven guilty you think. Yes, that makes sense. But wait, the ban stays in effect even after the trial ends, the defendant is found guilty and trotted off to jail!  In Canada, if you are the victim of a sex crime, the publication ban stays in effect even after the guilty person is sentenced. Unless, you as a victim put forth a petition, and it is approved. This means, that as a victim of sexual assault, if you speak out about what happened to you, and there is a publication ban in place, then you can be charged. Just for sharing what happened to you. For more informati...

  If the title above is confusing for you, then please let me explain. If you understand it, and were given your own version, please share!  When I was first getting to know Asshole, I did what any normal single woman would do, I googled him. I found some stuff, his Instagram, etc. There were some pretty sappy posts for his ex-wife in what I assumed were happier times. My spidey senses tingled a bit, because there was so much. However, I myself hadn't gone back and deleted past posts with my ex-husband. Mind you we were never lovey dovey on social media. One of the things that I noticed was Asshole used the acronym DSLOML and I had no clue what it meant. It didn't matter, it was in reference to someone else. Then he started to call me DLLOML, and explained it's meaning. Red flags went off, as that meant that the meaning of DSLOML, the S stood for his ex-wife. It bothered me that he was reusing a phrase that he created for his ex-wife and substituted one letter for me. Assho...

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 **As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** Date March 7 Happy Anniversary! One year ago we met! I miss you. I love you! Trying to get ready for the day. Have some errands to run and must go to the storage unit to get a few things. It's a gorgeous day here and I will probably go for a walk as well. Also must do some housework here at my Condo my blog. I really wish I could, There's a picture of your anniversary card on give it to you. Mad to go to my storage unit to get some things for my condo. I really wish you could see the storage unit because most of the stuff was for your place as we had planned Got what I needed. Came home. Made supper-lamb chops. don't like lamb - that's okay. Nothing muchelse is happening here. Tonight I need to do some ivoring than that, just reading and some Netflix. I really miss you my beautiful fiancée. I love I know you Imuch! Your ever loving and adoring fiance Other you so Seic Xxoxoxo Page 127 (C...

 **As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** March 6, 2020 you and I miss you. Had another reaction to the new medication. Spent over an hour at the doctors today tring to get to the bottom of it. My blood pressure. went through the roof. Page 125 Date To% My darling fiancée Page 126 I Love you for so many reasons. Date Page 126 Date Ladybird I LOVE YOU... because you dream with me and you know how to make me laugh... because your hugs warm me and your kisses make My It's but o My L Love Coul れ my heart skip a beat... because you're not only my partner but also Song of Jolomon har wow suc my best friend... 8:6 dow because you're there when times are tough you mor nec tha and you make the good times even better. I LOVE YOU because no matter what- you love me, too. Love хохохо Eric YXoxoxo L mu Ith are of mon OXOXO My dailing fiancée- It's been a year-many ups and downs. but one this is still the same and the in my life- that is that...

 **As always, the purple text is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** March 5, 2020 My darling fiancée. I miss It is a and you were here I love you! I wish you were beautiful Sunnyday. I'm on my lunch break. you are on my mind-as always. It's been very busy here this morning. Went to a rehearsal and took notes This afternoon I have a mountain of paperwork to get though. Left work at 4pm to run some work errands donnomm. Your anniversary card is here now - pasted on the next page. Got home around 5.30pm. Dinner and getting ready for RCIA. (Wow, what a short entry! He must have been so darned busy with errands and work that day. Oh, and an anniversary card... Even though we weren't together anymore, thus not having an anniversary to celebrate.)