Ladybug Speaks the Truth

 **As always, the purple text is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** March 5, 2020 My darling fiancée. I miss It is a and you were here I love you! I wish you were beautiful Sunnyday. I'm on my lunch break. you are on my mind-as always. It's been very busy here this morning. Went to a rehearsal and took notes This afternoon I have a mountain of paperwork to get though. Left work at 4pm to run some work errands donnomm. Your anniversary card is here now - pasted on the next page. Got home around 5.30pm. Dinner and getting ready for RCIA. (Wow, what a short entry! He must have been so darned busy with errands and work that day. Oh, and an anniversary card... Even though we weren't together anymore, thus not having an anniversary to celebrate.)

 **As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** ・February 14, 2020- Happy Valentine's Day My Love - I love you, Wish you were here. sadove you, I miss you terribly! I Somy I did not finise last night. (My pen seems to be running out, hence the changing.) I got home, it was cold and I was tired. Please forgive me. I just went to bed. my and Today I have a flexibleday. I only had an 11am meeting which was short and sweet. Dropped in at the library to collect two books and then to the bank to pay two biels Picked up a few groceries, had lunch and did some housework-mainly housework - mainly laundry. I did RCIA Reading now I'm writing you. I really wish I could see, you. Amanda- you are the great love of my life and I just wish you would be willing to fix this. Somewhere in my deepest being, I know you really want to but feel it can't be fixed or you have been told it can't be fixed. Last night's RCIA class on the sacrament of Reconci...

 **As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** February 13/20 My darling fiancée- I miss you and I love you - The so called storm has begun. I've just reture. from getting lunch and sitting at my desk to put pen to paper to you. hunch is not spectacular- just a pota pit wrap My morning has been busy Up early and I got some practising in before 10am. Then I have been typesetting solidly for three hours. Right now it's Page 98 Date just after 2pm. I'm hoping to leave here by 4:30pm so I can get home and not feel rushed like I did last Thursday as I have some reading to do before RCIA . I am going to mail that card today - no ands ifs or buts The past week my intuition has been telling me that you and 'no' are fixable big time and some how you want to fix this. How I communicate that to you is the hard thing so the card is I hope a way to start that. unynicate Amanda, you are my first and last thought each and every day. Amanda-you ...

 **As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** February 12, 2020- My darling and beautiful fiancée. I love you and I miss you! Another long day. Right now it is just after 7pm and I'm starting to get ready for the day over my second cappuccins ! (First one was in bed.) I had the vivid dream again. just like last time you were beside me in the bed. I could feel the body heat, and the smell of your hair and of course your snoring which I love! It was so real and now as I write it down I know that you weren't there-but there is something going on in the universe which is really speaking to me. I will write more later. First thing today was an interview for something at work. Had to dress up for that. Then hunch and then physiotherapy. Back at work right now. Trying to get through the list of things that still need to be accomplished. Some things have mi migrated from Monday and Tuesday, but they're going to be done Physiotherapy was long. T...

 **As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** February 11, 2020 Missing you so much. I adore you going your letter is now open on my desk and I'm to write as the day progresses. I have so much to do today. First was a staff meeting. Then collating scores. Got home at 4pm. Made a stop on the way to get a few groceries. I'm planning to go to the Tpre Mass. and adoration tonight. I made the decision to mail the card/ note to your parents. I have been vacilating about it for two weeks io on my way to mass-it will go in the mail. I watched Locke and Key on Netflix last night Managed to watch one episode before I had to is good-scary, but good! Maybe after Mass I will watch another opisode. I promise I will write at Stop. Page 96. It (Oh wonderful, this is when he mailed my parents something, despite knowing that was in violation of his release conditions.) Date length tomorrow. 'I love you! - Euc ♡хохо хо

 **As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** Mon Feb 10/20  I forgot to sign off last night. Netflix turned into a and then before I knew it - it was after midnight. I really miss you! I adore you! It is busy today. First thing wars I had a doctor's appointment. They did some bloodwork. My physiotherapy was cancelled because Gayle was ill. Then I had a meeting at work- yes on my day off. I spent the afternoon marking scores for Chicago. Page 95 (Was Gayle sick, or was she tired of listening to him whine?) Date Now, I'm sitting down for a cup of tea. I found this pen in my pencil case. I think it is yours. That makes it more going to be Special. Still trying to discern what supper is tonight I've got a pile of leftovers, so I may make a soup because, I feel bad about food wastage- but you know that. Not much else is new today. I'm just settling down for some Netflix tonight. I have a lot on my mind. I really wish you were here tonig...

 **As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** I miss you ! I love you. because Up early I awoke from the most wonderful I've dream live had-yes you were in it. I'm going to write it out here for you, also because I want to journal it You, Robbie, Theresa, and Malcolm were in it. The two Page 42 (Well buckle up folks, we are in for another treat of Asshole describing what I can only assume will be a ridiculous dream... Filled with babies, because you know, breeding fetish.) Date toddlers from my last big dream were in it. They were asleep in bassinets in the room. The dream was so vivid I could feel you there-badily and I could Smell you. That's how vivid it was. The time was 6:20 am because I looked over at the alarm clock. You snuggled into me and said, they'll be up soon and said I know. You then said, I have so much to do today." I said back, 'I'll help you as much as I can, I love you and kissed you on your forehead...

 **As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** -february 9, 2020- ever dailing love, MyJ I miss you and I love you! can just got home from Mass. This week was better planning and I got there in good time V Page Date unlike last week. Right now just having breakfast and reading the bulletin before making the bed and sitting down to write out some music sketches close to the front. I'm I'm starting to sit very your sew. Someone from church made calling it your pew a comment about it. Mass was short and sweet We had one minor glitch and that was No this this morning. the lector read the readings for the 5th Sunday of U Easter rather than the 5th Sunday in Ordinary Time, but it really didn't bother me so much. The music was okay. It reminded me of you! There was an announcement about the renovation loan which was inspiring. Had a nice walk home. Took the long way around the river. So now settinling into the typesetting I brought home. I have...

 **As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** My darling Amanda- off my Date Feb 2020 My day got away from me yesterday. I seemed to be run feet and always late for things. I didn't have time to write you yesterday. I finally got home at 9:15pm after RCIA class. Ate supper and just crawled into bed and slept until 8am this morning. my RCIA was about sin. Fr. Bester read an interesting paper he wrote. I could have listened to him all night. I like the scholarly side of his presentations. The snack last night was very impressive - leftover pizza, etc. St durateful was like another meal. I was grateful as I didn't have time yesterday to get meals. I was late arriving for RCIA and felt bad about that I've I've got a cold. This morning I'm downing a large pot of ginger tea! I think I got the cold on Wednesday when I was at the hospital as a little old lady in the waiting area who clearly had a cold. Oh well, nothing planned for the w...

 **As always, the purple text is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** There was no entry in the Manifesto for February 6, so I turned to the backpocket for todays entertainment. There is a random redacted statement, that is basically the same thing we have seen what feels like a million times already. Without further ado, today's insanity... I met almost a year ago. I never thought I would meet someone so special and fall in love after I initiated my divorce-but I did. We fell in love very fast nd we both said we had found the one wanted to spend the rest of our lives with. For me, I found the great love of my life. This whole matter began with a miscommunication of a number and the assumptions and misunderstandings arising from reading the draft affidavit of my divorce papers. I felt and I still believe it could/can be resolved-because I have always believed and still believe that if we act like adults and talk, and not hide, run, and ignore, this is fixable and it is w...

 **As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** My darling fiancée Date Feb 5 2020 I love you! Up early to get to work for a long all day meeting. I have to duck out early because I do have a physiotherapy appointment with the "supply "therapist at 1pmn. Physiotherapy went well. I managed to get 35° in one fenger and 25° in another. Right now I'm celebrating with chocolate which I got on my way back to work. Very happy with how that turned out hong production meeting today. Interesting in places- while boring in others. Didn't get out of the office until 5.38m. Had to stop and get a book I requested at the library. Came home and made salmon for supper Had a few things from work to take care of and now I'm sitting down to Netflix and some reading of course, some more chocolate t and I have this letter for your parents that I wish to send, but I'm reflecting on it - Praying is a better word to describe what I'm doing. Righ...