Ladybug Speaks the Truth

 **As always the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text. The text in black is my opinion.** February 21, 2020 My amazing fiancée - Amanda It's a beautiful outside -just like you the most beautiful woman in the world. I adore you and I miss you so much, it hurts sometimes! you Another week is ending. I feel like I am just putting in space here today at the office. Just have to get 4pm and I'm done. The walk to work was sunny but very cold! They managed to retrieve my Apple Pencil- That has made me happy. I'm not doing much today. I've got my Netflix on and I am writing you- the Great Love of my life Was thinking some more about last night's RCIA class. I must admit I am kind of excited about V Page 112. (Oh yay, his beloved Apple pencil is saved. Is this something specific to Apple users, that they have to use the name of the brand whenever they talk about the device? I never walk around saying, oh my Samsung this or that... Maybe it's jus...

 **As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** February 13/20 My darling fiancée- I miss you and I love you - The so called storm has begun. I've just reture. from getting lunch and sitting at my desk to put pen to paper to you. hunch is not spectacular- just a pota pit wrap My morning has been busy Up early and I got some practising in before 10am. Then I have been typesetting solidly for three hours. Right now it's Page 98 Date just after 2pm. I'm hoping to leave here by 4:30pm so I can get home and not feel rushed like I did last Thursday as I have some reading to do before RCIA . I am going to mail that card today - no ands ifs or buts The past week my intuition has been telling me that you and 'no' are fixable big time and some how you want to fix this. How I communicate that to you is the hard thing so the card is I hope a way to start that. unynicate Amanda, you are my first and last thought each and every day. Amanda-you ...

 **As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** I miss you ! I love you. because Up early I awoke from the most wonderful I've dream live had-yes you were in it. I'm going to write it out here for you, also because I want to journal it You, Robbie, Theresa, and Malcolm were in it. The two Page 42 (Well buckle up folks, we are in for another treat of Asshole describing what I can only assume will be a ridiculous dream... Filled with babies, because you know, breeding fetish.) Date toddlers from my last big dream were in it. They were asleep in bassinets in the room. The dream was so vivid I could feel you there-badily and I could Smell you. That's how vivid it was. The time was 6:20 am because I looked over at the alarm clock. You snuggled into me and said, they'll be up soon and said I know. You then said, I have so much to do today." I said back, 'I'll help you as much as I can, I love you and kissed you on your forehead...

 **As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** My darling - 1 Date Jan. 11, 2020 I miss you and I love you, I wish you were here Today, I'm getting my new tattoo! Up early as usual as I have to do laundry. It's raining quite hard. Doing laundry was good exercise! The folding especially. Ran a few errands. I needed to get Clara a birthday card- I signed your name to it and also R, T+M! Also went to the library and had to go I'm bribing myself to do things with my left hand today. There's a scarf I want so that is my reward. My beautiful fiancée - I miss you so much. I love you! (Nothing weird and creepy like sending your estranged daughter a birthday card signed by people's names that she has never met... Not to mention, if a man is estranged from his children, ask why... Reach out to the mother if you need to, because the reason that the man says, is not likely the real reason. Men who don't help raise/support their children ...

 **Trigger warning - This post is about a fetish, and how Asshole engaged me in his fetish without consent (aka sexual assault)** From early on, when getting to know each other, the topic of sex came up. Finding out likes, dislikes, what is ok, not ok, pretty standard stuff, so that there would be no surprises, and that both parties would be on the same page and therefore both would be consenting adults. Asshole was adamant that he wasn't into anything kinky or have any fetishes. (Not that there is anything wrong with that, I just wanted to know in advance.) Or so I thought. One thing that I made clear was that I did not want to get pregnant, and was on birth control. I also made it clear that condoms would be required, and if we decided to continue in a monogamous that proof of negative STI tests would be required to forgo condoms. All of this was agreed to. Asshole made it clear that he did not want (or have) children in the beginning, as "One Eric Osborne was enough for thi...