Ladybug Speaks the Truth

  Over the past couple of years, there has been a recurring theme in Assholes blog/social media posts… They often include photos that have background photos of me. I don’t know if I should be flattered, or not. Usually, I just laugh. The most famous picture is of me in the green and black dress… Except he has made it black and white. I think that is probably a good choice, seeing as that photo was my OKCupid profile picture, which means it predates him. Actually, that picture was taken by the man who came before him. It was taken while I was getting ready for a party that we were attending. It was a great night, and I was positively beaming. I sometimes wonder if Asshole was obsessed with that picture, because I never smiled at him like that. The three months with him was a whirlwind of chaos and fear, and I realize that I probably hardly smiled, or if I did, I felt forced to. I wonder what Asshole would think when he looked at a picture of a smile that was meant for anothe...

 **As always the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** -February 27, 2020- My darling and beautiful Amanda. Sorry that was abrupt from yesterday. Long day and very exhausted. I came home from Mars, ate, and went ring one of my new medications is bed. This morning bothering me. Was really hoping we would have a snow day, but alas. Right now I'm waiting on the cappuccins machine here at home to fire up. can I really miss you. I love you more than you ask or imagine! I wish wish you were here this moming so we could talk: The Mass last night was interesting. Much shorter than what the Anglicans would have done. The music was NOT to my taste. The weather was terrible, so the walk home was very slick! Come home and just binge watched something on Netflix. Went to work this morning. My trip to Woodstock has been rescheduled until March 12. Kind of slow today. The weather is not great. We were sent home at noon because it was getting worse. I stopped at the lib...

 **As always the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** February 26, 2020 Amanda- It's been a very busy morning here. I miss you so much I love you! My moming got away from me. Now at the hospital for physio, so I'm taking the time while I wait to write to you. Ran into an old friend from my Trinty Cambridge days. Had a good catch up. Then ran into Edgar from RCIA: Hoping to get 45° of bend today. Physiotherapy went very well today. Got to 45°0 of bend no problem. I'm very happy about that. Back to work for 3pm for a meeting. Was home at 4.30pm. My Leuten Page 117 (I am so sick of hearing about physio... Although it could be worse, this Manifesto could have continued into 2020 and he would be talking about Covid...) Date self denial of not swearing has cost me $25 so for today! Came home watched Netflix and put in time until Mars at 7pm hia Mass was good. The music was interesting to l (How can swearing cost him $25, when he didn't have two ni...

 **As always the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** -Feburary 25-2020- My darling fiancée I miss you and I love you so much Early day to day. I have a medical appointment. It snowed last night." The walk to the hospital was beautiful. Afterwards Jue got got a full day at work. I brought some paperwork with me that I need to do Last week it was the hand surgeon and the Page 116 (If it snowed, and was February, and I was feeling under the weather, and I had a medical appointment, do you know what I would do? I would drive my car to the appointment. Pretty certain everyone would drive in that situation. Except Asshole walks, probably because his car is a fabrication of his imagination.) Date cream for my scar tissue. Today it was the G.P and well, it's high blood pressure, cholesterol, and iron defficiency. Three prescriptions later I'm on a drug regimen. Went back to work for the day. Long day of paperwork. Left at 4.7 m. Going to Mars and Ador...

 **As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text. The text in black is my opinion.** February 24, 2020 My darling and beautiful Amanda- 2 What a weekend. I was ill and in bed for the weekend. Thank God today God today I have off so I can try to shake this off I did go out a couple of times - once for Mass and the other to go for a walk. A friend thought some freshair would do me good. It did but I was exhausted afterwards Don't know what today will hold. I need to Shake this off Page 115 Imus you Date Lespecially before tomonow. I have my doctors appointarent at 9 am and people unwell are not to go to the hospital. I miss you so much and I cove love you a lot! Today has been a slow day. Had three errands to run and that was it. Saw my friend Diane briefly and then had to go to Blowes to pick up something. Spent the aftermoon reorganizing my desk. I found a couple of things for you you to see. I wish there were a way for you to see this letter and I...

 Another item in the back pocket is a copy of what I assume is his divorce order. Although knowing Asshole, it might just be a forgery.  On the off chance this is real, I removed identifying details relating to innocent people caught up in the hurricane that is Asshole.

 **As always, the items in purple are from Google Docs converting an image to text. Text in black is my opinions.** One of the fun things that was in the back pocket was an itinerary that outlines a weekend plan Asshole had. Of course, this plan was never communicated to me during the time that I knew him. He has written extensively about it on his blog and in previous letters to me though. Let's go through it together and laugh at the sheer insanity of it. on my email Wednesday Lunch - Sideels 1 Amanda to house (He never took me out for lunch...because I left him in the Shoppers Drugmart parking lot that morning, and never returned. Obviously, he never took me to the make believe house.) Judy - Weekend in Stratford with Amanda July 5 Amanda's appointment in Woodstock (Remember what I said about the Wednesday above? About 20 minutes before I left him in that parking lot is when I even learned about the appointment in Woodstock. Which is proof that this schedule was made up AFTE...

 **As always the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text. The text in black is my opinion.** February 21, 2020 My amazing fiancée - Amanda It's a beautiful outside -just like you the most beautiful woman in the world. I adore you and I miss you so much, it hurts sometimes! you Another week is ending. I feel like I am just putting in space here today at the office. Just have to get 4pm and I'm done. The walk to work was sunny but very cold! They managed to retrieve my Apple Pencil- That has made me happy. I'm not doing much today. I've got my Netflix on and I am writing you- the Great Love of my life Was thinking some more about last night's RCIA class. I must admit I am kind of excited about V Page 112. (Oh yay, his beloved Apple pencil is saved. Is this something specific to Apple users, that they have to use the name of the brand whenever they talk about the device? I never walk around saying, oh my Samsung this or that... Maybe it's jus...

 **As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text. The text in black is my opinion.** -February 20-2020- My darling fiancée. I really miss you today. I love you! It has been a very long day. It started early and I'm home for a brief respite before going to RUA. I really wish you could be there tonight. I pray for that all the time моя Most of my day was spent running awound doing some work errands. I had a production meeting after lunch which lasted until 4:30pm. Most annoying thing is my Apple Pencil fell down a crack-quite inacessible, so I'm a liette annoyed night now They are trying to retrieve it Page 109 (Ah, the work errands! He used to tell me that he was some kind of music director with the Stratford Festival, however he used to have to go to Staples and other places for the most mundane items that would be the job of anyone except a music director! No one sends a high ranking staff member to buy pens. Heck, a place like Stratford Festiva...