Ladybug Speaks the Truth

 **As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text** Date January 21, 2020. My darling and beautiful fiancée - Amanda I love you! I miss you so much! I really wish you were here. It & about 7:45 am. I just got up. Didn't sleep well. I was up in the middle of the night as I had an interesting dream- yes, you were wi it, and sadly I woke up - sad because I just wanted to be with you and hear your beautiful voice and gaze upon the most beautiful woman in the world - you my of tea and start the process of reading etc. beloved Amanda. Just settling into having I love you! Going to be a long day today. First its going to be a staff meeting. You know how much I love meetings. My mornings was full of meetings. After lunch was just going through email and mail correspondence. After work I had some grocery shopping to do. Now I am home and I am thinking of making something for supper instead of some Ready made. mind about a lot is on my you and myself. you a...

 **As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** January 20, 2020 My darling Amanda I miss you so much. I love you! Date It is a cold and beautiful day here in Stratford. Very slippery too! Even though it has been my day off- I have been very busy. I've had a number of meetings and my physiotherapy appointment. The sunlight has been. welcome and in a way offsets the cold. you are on my mind a lot today. As I have said, it feels like there is connection with you today. I don't know why, but I about it heust do for some reason. I want to tell you you were in my dreams last night. You are very beautiful in my dream- 1- you are in real life-and always beautiful! You kept asking me to talk. I kept saying - Yes, and you would repeat your request you kept apologizing for everything and I just kept saying, 'It's all right. I love you and you and us are so important in my life! As I kept telling you, "You are now negotiable! That is the tr...

 **As always the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** Date Didn't Really do much. Feeling the cold today. OMG January 19, 2020 the we have so much snow. ! It is a beautiful sunny day. Went to Mass this morning. Place was almost packed-givent weather! Fr. David's sermon was really good. No splint! No strap! I was able to get more use out of my hand which made me really happy. Then went to library to return a book. Met a friend for tea and a muffin for lunch. Had a few errands to reen. Came home and did dishes and laundry and a few household chores. Watched a bit of TV - PBS. - this m I don't know why I am thinking this way- but I feel a very deep connection to you right now for some strange reason. I can't Explain it. I just feel your presence. I really desire to See you and talk to you I wrote a poem about morning. It's up on the blog as of tonight. Tomorrow, although it's my day off I have a number of committments that I need to tak...

 **As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** 208 January 18-2020 "My darling beloved. Amanda. you I miss you! I love you more than anything in the world - more than you could ask or imagine! You are the love of my life! you are my only dream. When I think of your eyes my eyes sparkle and gleam. When I think of holding I know I never want to let you go. I think of you- I see the rest of my life because I want to spend my life with you live. I only have this one life and I want to live it with you. I went out this morning. What a mess! Ran a few errands. Came back and decided I wasn't I came home had lunch and again. had a nap. Recorded the podcast. Then I spent a few hours trying to upload it - mud wrestling going out with a gorilla Page 67 (I forgot about his podcasts... I wonder if those are still floating around on the internet. The original blog is not still there, but maybe the podcast is still on YouTube.)

 **As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** January 17, 2020 My beautiful fiancée- darling Amanda- I miss you so much. I'm still having a hard time writing the new year! probably not the only a busy day today. I've had a couple of meetings and been trying to tie up loose ends on matters I want you to know there's a to know there's a difference between Someone who wants. Anything to Keep you you and someone who would do I'm the one who would do anything to keep you my darling, My day at work ended at 1pm. Then bus to downtown. to run some errands. I forgot my phone cord so I was having a few issues with phone battery I'm still trying to wrap my head around the re- confirmation thing. Logically it doesn't make sense, but theologically it does. I just really wish and ardently desire you to be there as my sponsor at the Great Vigil of Easter! Great ended up going to the library to charge my phone because I forgot my cord. ...

 **As always, the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** January 16, 2019 My darling and beautiful fiancee I miss you so much. I love you! close My arms ache to hold much. I love you! I really wish you you. I'm were to start with a going long conversation I had last night with an with an Anglican Anglican prest friend. Even though we were talking about something related to a church matter, we did talk about you for over a hour. It was therapeutic, I confess. Please of relaying what we talked about. Before I want you give me the indulgence. До I go into that I to know that how much I say I love you will always love you more than that. I plan to love you until for ever ends. i So Fr. Randy and I had a long chat last night about us. As I said I wish he had been helping the summer. I was truthful from my perspective - I was very careful not to make any assumptions about things. I told Randy about us and he wants to know why Ereri has the power to destroy rela...

 **As always the text in purple is from Google Docs converting an image to text.** I have combined three entries, as they are all very short, and mostly on the same page. My darling- My Date January 13, 2020 miss you so much! I love you more than you could ever imagine. Slow start today. It's my day off. Not much on today. I have my physis appointment at 1pm. Went to the library to pick up a hold. I really wish you were here night now. I miss you so much! Had my physio appointment at 1pm. They did a hot wax treatment. and ultrasound and then a whirlpool. I was able to make a fist I was very proud. Karly night tonight. Jan 14/20 missing you again. I had a doctor's appointment this morning. Now just at the office waiting for a meeting at 2pm. Not really much new. Not feeling particularly well today. I don't know what's wrong. Spent most of the dayc sleeping Lunch because are all I 4 hand Jan 15/20 Miss you my darling! Feeling a little better today 1 really wish you were c...